My Life @Jindgi Ek Safar Begana – Update 50

Update 50

takreeban 6-8 mahine ke athak prayas se mein jyada to nahi kah sakta hoon, lekin itna jarur ho gaya ki ab mujhe ye duniya daari moh maya lagne lagi,

kabhi-2 dhyan mein hi baithe-2 pata nahi chalta me kab so gaya.

In sabke bavjud mere office ke kaamon mein koi fark nahi aaya, ulta me jo bhi kaam hath mein leta uski safalta ki purn guarantee hoti, jisase mera boss aur jyada mere upar bharosa karne laga.

Karib 6 mahine ke mere dhayan ke anubhav ke baad mene ek hafte ka Tratak dhyan ka bhi anbhav kiya ..

Antim Charan mein “Kundalini Yatra” ke 10 din ke anubhav ke baad mein purn brahmcaahri ho chukka tha, ab koi Vishay vasna ya naari attraction kuchh nahi, sab khatam ho chukka tha.

Hamare sath hi ek harfun maula type ladka tha lamba sa lekin patla, sabhi prakar ke nashe ki lat thi use.

Usko jab mere dhyan ke baare mein pata laga to wo mujhe chalange karne laga ki aap bhang-gaanje ke nashe mein bhi dhyan laga sakein tab hum jaanein ki aapka dhyan pakka hai.

vaise to mujhe kisi se koi fark nahi padne wala tha ki koi mere baare mein kya sochta hai, par kuchh baatein samay ke hisaab se ya jo hona hota hai..

Mene uska challenge accept kar liya aur un cheezon ka sevan shuru kar diya, dheere-2 mujhe nashe ki aadat padane lagi, lekin usase mere dhyan mein koi antar nahi aaya, ulta aur gehra hone laga.

Lekin ek galat lat lag chuki thi jo ab aadat banti jaa rahi thi. par itna jarur sunishchit rakha ki wo cheejein prakratik hi hon.

Dhyan aur brahmacharya se meri gyanendriyo ki kshamta badhati jaa rahi thi, aisa mujhe mehsoos hone laga,

jab bhi me thoda vichalit hota kisi bhi karan se to Madhya ratri ke baad tratak dhyan mein baith jaata aur mera atmabal lautane lagta jisase saari mann ki chanchalta mit jaati aur baichaini dur ho jati.

Ek din mann kiya ki chalo kuchh manoranjan kar liya jaye, vaise to mera ghar shahar ki bheed bhad se dur bahari ilake mein tha, lekin koi karyavas hi shahar jana hota tha,

ek achhi pariwarik movie lagi thi to dekhne ka vichar ho gaya, shayad ek ya do hi hall they us samay uss shahar mein.

Main chowk mein jo cinema hall tha usmein thi wo movie, me ticket lekar toilet ki taraf jaa raha tha, tabhi mere kaanon mein kuchh aisi awajein sunai di jo asmvedansheel thi,

Ab ye chaho to gyanendriyon ki Shakti badh gayi ho ya kuchh anhoni se bachane ka niyati ka prayojan kah lo,…

me un awajon ki taraf gaya to char vyakti toilet ke peechhe ki side mein khade baatein kar rahe they.

Mujhe sach mein ye achambha hua ki koi vyakti itni dur ki awajein itni sugamata se kaise sun sakta hai..? lekin mene sun li thi.

Wo charon kuchh bomb blast karne ke baare mein batein kar rahey they.

Unki baatein sun kar mere tirpan kaanp gaye, kahin ye isi hall ko udane ki baat to nahi kar rahey..? hey eshwar agar aisa ho gaya to pata nahi kitani jaanein jaayengi.

Mene bahar aakar idhar-udhar nazar daudai iss asha mein ki shayad koi police wala dikhai de jaaye to usse inform kar doon. Lekin durbhagyavas koi nahi dikha.

Ab karun to kya karun..? sach puchho to bomb ka naam hi itna ghatak hai ki sunte hi rooh fana ho jaye.

Marta kya na karta wali baat.. khud hi kudane ka faisala le liya aur un logon ki taraf chal diya.

Jaise hi udhar pahuncha…! Ye kya..? ye saale narpishach kahaan gayab ho gaye.. ? ab kya karun..?

me kinkartavya vimudh sa wahin khada rah gaya…! fir kuchh soch kar ki yahan khade rahne se kuchh nahi hoga mujhe kuchh to karna hoga..?

me mudkar hall ke entrance ki taraf badha dusare log enter hona shuru ho gaye they pahlewala show chhutane ke baad.

Ab meri baichaini badhane lagi thi, ander jaaun ya nahi jaaun, samasya ye thi ki agar ye baat mein kisi aire-gaire hall ke karmachari ko batata hoon, usne meri baat ka bharosa kiya nahi kiya..?

aur ye bhi kah sakta hai ki mein janbujhkar kisi ke kahne se hall ko badnam karne ya pablicity stunt kar raha hoon to khamkha samay barbad hoga aur karne wale apna kaam karke nikal chuke honge.. !

Yahi sab udhedbun mein me khada tha ki tabhi meri nazar

unmein se do logon par padi, wo hath mein ek chhota sa hand bag liye hall mein enter kar rahey they.

Me fauran unki ore lapaka, lekin jab tak mein un tak pahunch pata wo ander ghus chuke they.

Unpar nazar banaye hue mein bhi ander badhta chala gaya. Hall mein roshni mamuli thi, lekin meri aankhein saaf-saaf unhein dekhne mein saksham thi.

Wo main gallery mein hi they ki me logon se bachta bachata unke pass aur pass hota jaa raha tha. isase pahle ki wo apni row ki taraf mudate mene peechhe se lapak kar dono ki garden apne dono hathon ki majbut pakad mein leli…

Ab wo dono chaah kar bhi apni -2 garden peechhe ghuma nahi sakte they.

Mere hathon mein na jaane kahaan se itani majbuti aa gayi, mere sharir ki puri Shakti jaise mere hathon mein aagayi ho.

Mene apne hathon ke jore se hi peeche ghumane par unhein majboor kar diya aur bahar ki ore le chala.

Mene apni dono baahein un dono ke gale mein lapet di aur dono hathon ke anguthey seedhe khade karke unke gale ke kauye (tentuwe) ki seedh mein kardiye aur unke Kadam se Kadam mila kar chalte huye un dono ke kaanon mein sard lehaje mein fusfusaya-

Tum log mere hathon ki pakad se hi samajh chuke hoge ki me tum logon ka kya hashra kar sakta hoon, isliye tumhari bhalayi isi mein hain ki tum chupchaap mere sath bahar ki ore chalo.

Is samay hum teenon aise chal rahey they mano teen jigari chal rahe hon, jinke kandhe par mere haath rakhe hon.

Unmein se ek bola- tum ho kon aur hamein bahar kyon le jana chahte ho..?

Me- mujhe pata hai ki tum yahaan kya karne wale ho aur iss bag mein kya hai..? agar mene tumhein iss public ke hawale kar diya to tum log samajh sakte ho ki kya hashra hoga tumhara,

ye public 50-50gm baant ke le jayegi tum dono ki body ko. Aur haan mere anguthe dekh rahe ho..? jara bhi chalaki dikhane ki koshish ki to Vishwas karo ye kisi chaku se kam kaam nahi karenge, seconds se pahle tumhare tentuwe ander ghus chuke honge, isliye cup-chaap chalte raho…

Unhein sthiti ka bhaan ho chukka tha isliye wo chup chaap mere sath bahar tak aa gaye, dekhne wale yahi samajh rahey they ki dost honge.

Bahar aakar mene kaha- ab batao jail jana chahoge ya apni jaan bachana chahoge..?

Unmein se ek bola- dekho hamein chhod do, wada karte hain ab hum aisa kuchh nahi karenge aur ye shahar abhi chhod kar chale jaayenge.

Me bhi to yahi kar raha hoon mene kaha- lekin mujhe tum logon par bharosa nahi hai, isaliye khud tum logo ke saath shahar se bahar tak chal kar chhodne jaunga, taki tum fir koi wardat yahaan na karo…

Mene unse agla sawal kiya – tum log yahaan kaise aaye they bolo..

Wo- apni bike se, mene kaha kahaan hai chalo wahaan tak, to wo isi position mein mere saath hall ke peechhe khadi bike tak aaye.

ye ek yazdi 250 motor cycle thi, mene apni position change karke firse unke peechhe se gale pakad kar daba diye aur dono ko aage bithaya bag ke sath aur khud sabse peechhe baith gaya.

Usne bike start ki aur chal diye shahar se bahar jaane wale road par.
Raste mein mene unse puchha- kis tarah ka bomb hai ye..?

Wo- timer wala,

Me- kitna time set kiya hai..?

Wo- ek ghante ka jismein se lagbhag 40 minute nikal chuke hain, hamara plan tha ki movie shuru hone ke 20-25 minutes ke baad hi fate, hum isse apne seat ke neeche chhod kar aane wale they.

Me- jaldi chalo hamein 15 min mein jungle tak pahunchana hai.

Us road par ek bahut hi Ghana jungle hai jo main city se koi 20km dur hai, jungle itna Ghana aur khatarnaak hai, ki 7 baje ke baad usase public transport band kar diya jaata hai aur subah ke 6 baje hi shuru hota hai.

Iss samay sava teen baje they… shahar chhodte hi usne bike ki speed badha di kyonki ab unhein apni jaan ki bhi parwah hone lagi thi.

Aadmi kitana hi bada rakshash kyon na ho khud ki maut se sabko darr lagta hai,

Ghane jungle mein pahunchte hi mene bike rokne ko kaha, aur side mein khada kare jungle ke ander chalne ko kaha, mene firse unke gale kabje mein le liye they,

Road se koi 100 meter ander jaakar mene aprtyashit roop se un dono ke sir ek mote se ped ke tane par de maare, un dono ke sar fat gaye, aur wo dhadam se wahin gir pade.

Unke girte hi mene fatafat unke kaan ke peechhe ki nas jo nervous system ko control karti hai daba di jisase ye assure ho gaya ki ab wo palat kar mujh par attack nahi kar sakte.

Mene bag se bomb nikala, uski emergency light on ho chuki thi, uske set time mein ab matra chand seconds hi bache they, fauran wo un dono ki body ke beech rakha aur puri Shakti se daud laga di…

Abhi me road tak pahunch bhi nahi paaya tha ki bhaddaamm….

Ek jabadust dhamaka hua, us dhamake ki intensity itani jyada thi ki 100 meter dur par bhi mera sharir hill gaya uske jhatke se me uchhal kar ek ped se jaa takraya…

Meri aankhon ke saamne andhera sa chhagaya aur me kuchh samay ke liye hi sahi apni chetna kho baitha.

Do minute mein hi mene apne aap ko sambhala, blast ki disha mein dekha to ek do ped bhi ukhad kar gir gaye they, kuchh to beech se tut hi gaye they.

Mene aankhein band karke uparwale ka dhanyabaad kiya, agar ye dhamaka hall ke ander ho jata to..? sochkar hi meri rooh kaanp gayi.

Me bike ke pass aaya, start ki aur shahar ki ore dauda di.

15 minute baad hi mene wo bike wahi khadi kardi aur wahaan se hat kar pass ke restaurant mein baith gaya bike par nazar rakhe huye.

Movie abhi khatam nahi huyi thi, koi 15 minute hi huye honge ki wo dono jo unke sath toilet ke peechhe baat-cheet karte dekhe they mene, bike ki taraf aate dikhayi diye.

Unhone idhar-udhar nazar daudayi kuchh der. Me samajh gaya ki wo apne un dono sathiyon ko dekh rahe honge.

Jab kuchh der aur unhein wo dono nahi dikhe to wo khadi bike ki seat par hi baith gaye aur unka intezar karne lage.

Me lambe-2 dag badha kar achanak se unke peechhe se pragat hokar bola- apne doston ki rah dekh rahe ho jo hall mein bomb rakhne wale they..?

Wo ekdum chonke gaye aur mere muh ki taraf dekhne lage.

Me- kya dekh rahe ho..? unka plan fail ho gaya…! Shukr karo ki mein time par pahunch kar unko surakshit nikal legaya varna abhi tak to tum log bhi police hirasat mein hote..!

Ek – lekin tum kon ho..? aur tumne un dono ko kyon bachaya..?

Me- kyon ! nahi bachana chahiye tha..?

Dusra – nahi..nahi.. iska kahne ka matalb hai ki tumhara kya faayda ismein jo tumne ye sab kiya hamare liye…?

Me- mera naam salim hai, mujhe is shahar hi nahi is desh ke kanoon se hi nafarat hai, jiski vajah se aaj me anathon jaisa jivan jeene ko mazboor hoon.

Abhi tum log bas itna samajh lo, ki jo tum karnewale they usase bhi bada dhamaka hoga lekin beksoor logon ki jaanein lekar nahi, iss prashasan ki naak mein nakel daal kar. Aaj hi hum kotwali ko udayenge.

Tum log mere sath chalo, wo log public ki nazar mein aa chuke hain, isaliye mene jahaan unhein bheja hai wahaan wo tum logon ka intezar kar rahe hain, jaldi karo hamare pass samay nahi hai.

Wo log meri baton mein fans gaye aur usi bike se fir hum teenon usi jugle mein pahunch gaye, bike ko kinare khadi karke mene unhein jungle ke ander chalne ko kaha to unmein se ek bola.

Yahaan jungle mein kyon aaye hain wo log..?

Me – mene unhein yahin par phunchne ke liye bola tha, chunki shahar mein un logon par police ko shaq ho gaya hai..

Ab jo bhi plan taiyar karna hai yahin baith kar karenge.

Unmein se ek ne fir puchha- lekin wo log hain kahan..?

Mene us pahle wali jagah se opposite side mein ishara karke kaha- wo log idhar hi honge, ho sakta hai thoda ander jaakar baithe honge.

Jab hum jungle ke andar koi 150 meter tak chale gaye to wo fir se bola- wo log to kahin dikhayi nahi de rahe ? kahin tum hamare sath koi chaal to nahi chal rahe..?

Me- tumne theek samjha…! Tum log mere jaal mein fans chuke ho aur jaldi hi tumhein bhi un dono ke pass bhej dunga.

Unmein se ek ne fauran apni gun nikal li aur mere upar taan di..,
second ke sauwen hisse mein meri chhatthi indriya jag gayi, ab meri nazar uski gun ki naal ki position aur uske trigger par tiki thi.

Wo gun leharate huye bola- bata un dono ke sath tune kya kiya..?

Me- dekh udhar dhuaan dikh raha hai..? mene udhar ishara karke kaha, to fauran un dono ki nazar us disha mein ghum gayi.

Wo dono ussi jagah par anpne bomb ke saath udd chuke hain, abtak to 72 hoorein unki sewa mein lag gayi hongi.

Us gun wale ne daant peeste huye kaha- kafir ki aulad tune hamaare plan ko chaupat kar diya aur hamare sathiyon ko hi uda diya,

me tujhe jinda nahi chhoudnga, ye kahte huye usne trigger daba diya.

Me micro secs mein apni jagah se thoda sa hat gaya aur sath hi uski gun ki naal mere hath mein thi, ek hath se uski gun wale hath ki kalayi thaam kar ek jor ka jhatka diya,…

natija ! uski gun mere hath mein aa chuki thi, dusre wale ne jaise hi mujh par hamla karne ki koshish ki, meri tang hawa mein ghumi aur wo aundhe muh peechhe ko ulat gaya.

Ab bazi mere hath mein thi, mene fauran uski gun uske aankhon ke beech mathe par tika di aur dabaav daalte huye sard lahze mein gurraya-

Bol haramzaade, kon kon hai iss sabke peechhe, aur kyon karna chahte they itna bada narsanghaar..?

Wo kuchh nahi bola sirf jalti aankhon se mujhe ghoorta raha.. tab tak dusara banda jo aundhe muh gira tha, utha aur jaan bachakar bhagne ki koshish ki,

Mene faran gun ka rukh uski ore kiya aur ek fire kar diya, goli uski jangh cheerti hui paar ho gayi aur wo cheekh marte huye wahi gir pada.

Dard se buri tarah tadap raha tha wo.

Mene fir apna nishana uss gun wale ki ore karke kaha- jaldi bol mere pass samay nahi hai..

wo bas ghurta hi raha.. ki dhnaay, mene trigger daba diya aur goli uske sar mein hole banati huyi peechhe se naikal gayi..

Second ke sauwe hisse mein hi uske pran pakheru udd gaye, aur fati aankhon se asamaan ko dekhta hua jamin par gir pada.

Ab mene us ghayal ke pass jakar use gale se pakad kar uthaya aur jabadusti khada karte huye puchha-

agar apni jaan bachana chahta hai to sab kuchh sach- sach bata de.

waada karta hoon tujhe jinda chhod dunga, varna tu apni aankhon se dekh hi chukka hai,

mujhe tum jaise deshdrohiyon ko maarne mein koi hichkichahat nahi hoti.
Wo jeene ki chah mein tote ki tarah shuru ho gaya-

Mera naam ashlam hai, me akela hi iss shahar se inke sath hoon.
ye jo abhi-2 tumne mara hai iska naam shamsuddin tha, Rampur ka rahne wala hai,

jinhein bomb se udda diya hai unmein se ek Pakistani tha aur dusara dilli se aaya tha.

Ye log 4 din pehle yahaan aaye they, shahar ki reki ki aur is cinema hall ko udaane ka plan final kiya.

Me- Kyon udaana chahate they itane logon ko..? aur tum in logon ka sath kyon de rahe they..?

Wo- hum sabhi jaante hain ki Pakistan is desh se kitani nafart karta hai, aur uske mansubon ko amalijama pehnane mein hamare yahaan ke kuchh log bhi sath dete hain.

Rampur ki masjid ka maulana ataulla-khan hai, uske pakistan se seedhe sambandh hain, chunki wo ek maulvi hai to prashasan bhi uspar hath nahi dalta.

Usi ne mere abbu ko 50,000/- rupaye diye aur mujhe ismein shamil hona pada, hamare pariwar ki maali halat sahi nahi hai, so abbu lalach mein aagaye.

Me apne ghar ka sabse bada hoon jo abbu ke sath thoda bahut kamata hoon, baaki 3 behnen, 2 chhote bhai sabka bojh hai unke kandhon par .

Me- saale haramjade, kisne kaha ki itni aulad paida karo, jab nahi chalta hai to..?
tum log saale, jiss desh mein rah kar khate ho usi ko nukshan pahunchate ho.

Aur kya jaante ho iss baare mein…?

Wo- isase jyada aur mujhe kuchh pata nahi hai me sach kah raha hoon, ab mujhe jaane do.

Tauba karta hoon aainda aisa koi kaam nahi karunga.

Me- tum deshdrohi ho, aur meri dictionary mein deshdrohiyon ke liye ek hi saja hai, aur wo hai maut….

dhaany…ek goli aur chali, jo uska bheja cheerti hui paar ho gayi…..