UPDATE 2O
Recap –
Thodi der baad me bhi uper apne room me aa gya…aur ready hoker sone ke liye let gya…abhi me leta hi tha ki…neeche gadi ki awaz aai…
jo ki Anchal aur Mehreen ke aane ki sabut tha… Aanchal ka khyal aate hi fir se mind uski aaj club wali harkat par chala gya… me leta hua us incident ko bariki se analysis kar rha tha ki…room ka darwaza “dhadam” se khula dekha to wha Aanchal khadi thi… uski sanse chadhi hui thi mano millo bhag kar aai ho… ab kyuki wo mere samne khadi thi to mene bhi majboot man karke use khulkar is bare me baat karne hi than li thi…wo chalti hui mere paas aai…mene muh khola ki tha ki “chatak” ek thapad mere gaal par pada…mujhe kuch samaj nhi aaya ki ye achanak ise hua kya… mene puchne ke liye mundi uski aur ki hi thi ki “CHATAK”…
Ab aage –
Dusra thapad padne ke baad me samaj gya ki baat kuch badi he kyuki aaj tak Aanchal ne mujpar kabhi haat nahi uthaya tha chahe situation kaise bhi ho…uska wo achanak thapad barsana mujhe halka chub gya…par fir bhi me aankh band aur gaal aage karke khada ho gya…kyuki jo bhi Aanchal mujhe deti thi me kabhi mna nahi karta tha…aaj chahe wo thapad hi kyu na ho…me teesre thapad ke intzar me tha…par wo na aaya aur mujhe uske bed par bethne ki aahat hui…mene aankhe kholkar dekha to use bed par betha paya…jab use nazre takrai to use meri nazro me ghurta paya…
AANCHAL:
Tu yahi sab karne ke liye yha ruka tha?
(use tang kaste hue bola)
ME:
Kya matlab?
(me vastav me nahi samjha uska matlab)
AANCHAL:
Yehi sadak-chaap gunda gardi karne ke liye yha thera tha na…agr ye sab karna he to wapas mumbai lot ja aur khub kar…par yha agr tune ye sab kiya to mujse bura koi nahi hoga…
(uski awaz bolte hue bhari ho gyi mano ro padegi)
Uske khete hi me uska matlab bkhubi samj gya…shayad Aanchal ko aaj wale incident ka pta chal chuka he…me khamoshi se uske bagal me beth gya…par kuch bolne ki himat na hui…wo bhi khamosh aur me bhi maun…
AANCHAL:
Kya zarurat aan padi thi aesi ki tujhe goli lagte hue bachi?
Shayad Aanchal ko sari baat tafseel se nahi maulm thi…mene apni gardan uski aur moodi… aur apni baat khene shuru kiya…Aanchal ne aaram se meri puri baat suni… apni baat khene ke baad me khamosh ho gya aur uski pratikriya ka intzar karne lga…wo kuch na boli bas shant bethi rhi…mujhe pyaas lagi thi kuch to wase hi aur thapado ki anubhuti se… mene pani ki bottle ke liye haat badhaya…ki Aanchal bol padi aur me ghabra gya…ki ab pda ek aur chata… par kher aesa na hua…
AANCHAL:
Wha aur bhi to log the…to tu hi kyu superman banne chala tha…zra sa bhi khyal nahi aaya ki agr tujhe kuch ho gya to mummy-papa ka kya hoga?
(usne gusse aur chinta ki mishrit bhav se bola)
ME:
Aur tera?
(mene muskurate hue use swal kiya)
Mere swal se Aanchal halka sakpka gayi…shayad meri khane ka matlab bkhubi jaan gyi thi…
AANCHAL:
Ye bekar ki bate chood dikha mujhe kha lagi he goli…
(usne meri swal ko talne ke liye mudda mod diya aur mere kaan ko dekhne lagi)
Mene bhi use mudda talne diya aur use aapna kaan dekhne diya…aur badi bariki se kaan ko dekh rhi thi mano use doctri ke baare me sab malum ho…aur me uski chinta se bhari aankho ke samunder me dubne lga… “kitni sunder aankhe he Aanchal ki mano saari duniya ki masumiyat inme samai ho…kitni gheri…mano koi tha na ho…aur kitni nischal mano kuch bhi chupa na paye”…me uski aankho me dub sa gya…aesa anubhav mere saat pheli baar hua…uski aankho ne mano mere wajood ko ked kr liya tha…
AANCHAL:
Dekh kitni gheri choot aai he… agar goli halki si ander hoti to…
(wo ye bolker chup ho gyi shayad wo anjam ko sochna bhi nahi chati thi)
Kal subha chup-chap mere saat docter ke paas chalna…samjha…nahi to teri saari dileri nikal dungi…
(usne chetate hue bola)
Mene muskura kar “hami” me gardan hila di…uske ye gusse wala pyaas wakai me bahut payara lag rha tha… aur wo saari zindagi mujhe aese fatkarti rhe to ta-umr use dant khane ko tyaar hu… mujhe ek-do aur nashihat dekar wo room ke bhaar jane ko mudi…
ME:
Aankhe…
(use jate dekh bola)
AANCHAL:
Kya?
ME:
Teri aankhe…tune club me acting to bahut achi ki thi…par teri aankhe sachai ko chupa na pai…agr agli baar kuch aesa karna ho to apni aankho par dhyaan dena
(mene muskurate hue natkhat tone me bola)
Apne acting ka pardafas hone se Aanchal thoda sharma gyi…
AANCHAL:
Kisne kha wo acting thi…me to pure man se kar rhi thi pure enjoyment ke saat…
(uske apni kriya ka bachav karte hue bola)
Me bister se khada hua…aur apne dono haat uske kando par rakh diye…usne sar uthakar meri nazro me dekha… aur mene apni nazro me uski halki hari ankho ko thaam liya…
ME:
Mera saara bachpan tere chaav me guzra he Aanchu… tere liye to bas me ek shrarti chota bhai tha… par mere liye to tu sab kuch thi… teri aankho ko dekhkar tera dil ka haal janne ki kla seekhi thi mene… jab teri aankho me gussa hota to me chup-chap beth jata… jab unhone chanchalta hoti to me bina kisi dar ke tere saat masti karta… mujse behter teri aankho ko bhala kon padh sakta he…to tune ye kaise keh diya apne man se wo sab kar rhi thi…jabki teri aankhe to kuch or bya kar rhi thi…
(mene sabkuch uski aankho me ghurte hue bola)
Meri baato ko sunker Aanchal shayad kisi soch me duub gyi…na to usne nazar ko hataya meri nazro se aur na meni hi zurat kari…room me pankhe ki awaz ke bavzood me uski sanso ko sun par rha tha… aaj mujhe kuch mehsoos hua jo meri abtak ki zindjani me kabhi nahi hua tha…”ek khichav” Aanchal ke prati… ya ye khichav hamesha se tha use kile mere ander aur me use samaj na paya… par kyu aesa ho rha tha mere ander…jiska jwaab mere paas na tha…Aanchal abhi bhi khamoshi se meri aankho me ek sans de rahi thi…samay ki suiyo ne mano waqt ko thaam liya tha…
AANCHAL:
Bahut badi-badi baate karne lga he tu…mujhe to malum hi nahi hua ki kab mera wo chota bhai jo harwaqt Aanchu-Aanchu karta mere peeche mandrata rehta tha aaj itna bada ho gya…
(usne muskurte hue mere gaal to thap-thpa diya)
Chal ab soja ab waqt kafi ho gya he…aur subhe docter ke paas bhi jana he…
Aanchal ye bolker room se bahar jane lgi…me uski muskurahat jo usne thode waqt phele bikhari thi aapko nazuk hotho par use duba hua tha…meri tandra jab tuti jab room ka darwaza ki chokhat par ek awaaz hui…dekha to Aanchal dehleez lang rhi thi…
ME:
Anchu aaj mere saat soja…
(bekhayali me mere muh se ye alfaaz nikal gye shayad iski wajah Aanchal ki itne dino ki narazgi thi jiska jor aaj dabta dikha)
Iske istaqbal me usne kuch na kha…aur bahar nikal gyi…me bhi into dino baad Aanchal ke saat hui kathi-meethi bato ki baato me dubta hua bister par let gya… reh-reh kar mere khyaal uski un hari aanko me kho rhe the… aur me is baat ko samaj nahi pa rha tha ki aesa “kyu”… par jab gor se socha to paya ki pheli baar nahi hua tha mere saat balki jab se hosh sambhala he tab hi se me kuch aesa hi feel karta aaya hu… par akhir ye kaisi feeling he aur ye sirf Aanchal ke aas paas hi kyu hoti he…me apne khayaalo me khoya tha ki room ka drwaja ek aur aur khula…dekha to wha Aanchal khadi thi haat me takiya aur chader liya… aur usne apne kapde bhi badal liye the…wo chalte hue mere nazdeek aai…
AANCHAL:
Ab aese muj khole kya dekh rha he chal udher khisak…
(usne mujhe muskurate hue dant wale lehze me bola)
Mujhe bhi apni bevkufi ka khyaal aaya aur me thoda peeche khisak gya…Aanchal apna takiya aur chadar set karke let gyi aur uske bagal me bhi mujhe yakeen hi nhi aa rha tha ki Aanchal mere bagal me leti he… mene apne haat par chutki kaat ke dekha kahi ye sab ek khwaab to nahi…jise Aanchal ne dekh liya…
AANCHAL:
Are ye kya kar rha he?
ME:
Dekh rha hu kahi ye khwaab to nahi…aaj kitne salo baad hum dono ek saat so rhe he…tujhe yaad he Aanchu wo waqt jab aesa koi bhi din nahi hota tha ki me tere saat na sou…aur ek baar ki baat yaad he jab tujhe bukhar hua tha par me zid par ad gya tha ki tere saat hi sona he…
AANCHAL:
Ha khub yaad he…mummy-papa ne bahut roka tha tujhe par tu na mana aur khud bhi bukhar karwa karwa le beth gya… ek number ka ziddi tha tu…hihihi
(itni dino baad uski hasi sunkar bahut acha lga aaj)
Fir hum dono khamoshi se let gye…na wo kuch boli na me…par mujhe pta tha wo soi nahi he… uski hateli meri sharir se chu rhi thi…mene haat badhakar uski hateli mere haato me ked karli…usne ser ghumakar mere aur dekha…mene bhi uski aur dekha…uski sanse mere chere se dhimi-dhimi takra rhi thi…mere ander fir wohi anjani si feeling ne sar utha liya…mano ab mujhe aur kuch na chahiye…sir Aanchal, me aur antheen waqt…
ME:
Anchal mere saat chalegi…
(mene shesa use puch hi betha)
Usne koi jwab na diya…aur meri ankho me dekhne lagi…kuch tatolne lagi… mene bhi use apne aaknho me dekhne diya…shayad ise use mere irado ki mazbooti ka ahsaas ho jaye…wo kafi der tak dekhti rhi…shayad wo palke jhapakna bhul gyi thi aur shayad me bhi…
AANCHAL:
Kya le jayega mujhe?
(usne wase ki ghurte pucha)
ME:
Kahi dur jha sirf tu aur me ho…
(mene bhi waise dekhte hue jwab diya)
Aanchal mera jwab sunkar halka muskura di…aur apni hateli ki ungliya mere haat se saat jod li…
AANCHAL:
Aesa kyu?
(usne shararat bhare chere se pucha)
Uske aesa puchne se me thoda sharma gya…kyuki tab mujhe samaj aaya ki mene kaise jwab diya he…
Aanchal bhi mere sharmana samaj gyi thi isliye usne apni hateli ki pakad thodi majboot kar di… mano keh rhi ho ki tumhe sharmane ki jarurat nahi he…
AANCHAL:
Raj tujse ek baat puchu?
ME:
Hu…
(mene jwab diya)
AANCHAL:
Tu kyu mujhe yha se lekar jana chata he?
(usne aankho me dekhte hue bola)
ME:
Anchu tune ye rasta majboori me chuna tha…aur ab bhi teri aankho me majboori dikhai padti he…isliye aur…
Iske baad me chup ho gya…shayad jo bolna chata tha use bolne ke liye jo himmat chahiye thi wo rago me mehsoos na hui…
AANCHAL:
Aur?
(usne badi betabi se pucha)
ME:
Aur…me tere bina nahi rek sakta
(mene himat samet kar bol hi diya)
Meri bato ko sunkar Aanchal muskura uthi…wo apni khoni ke bal halka uper uthi…aur mere uper jhukte hue mere mathe ko chum liya…uske us prem bhare chumban ne mere saare wajood ko nihal kar diya…wo wapas mera haat thame wapas let gyi…room me fir se sanata pasar gya…na jane kitni der ye khamoshi rahi…sunhe ke 4 bj gye the…par dono ki aankho se neend koso dur thi…
AANCHAL:
Raj…mene zindagi me bahut dhoke khaye he… isliye ab kisi sapne ko aankho me basan mere liye bahut mushkil he… to mere ander koi kwaab na jga… shayad uska is baar tutna me bardast na kar pau…
(usne sanjeeda hoker bola)
Mene us aur karwat li…uske gaal par aai lato ko apni ungliyo se kaan ke peeche kiya…wo sara time bina palke jhapkaye meri harkat dekhti rahi…
ME:
Aanchal tune sabpe viswas karke dekh liya…ek akhri baar mujpar bhi karke dekh le…teri kasam khata hu niras nahi karunga…
(me apni zameer ki saari gambhirta samette hue bola)
Aanchal ne iske jwaab me koi utter na diya…bas mujhe dekhti rahi…aur me use…kafi time yehi hota rha…fir wo dhire se apni khoniyo par hui…aur mere gaalo par apne narm hooth rakhkar…ek chumban diya…aur fir wapas let gyi…mujhe uski ye harkat kuch samaj na aai…par puncha bhi kuch nahi…aur fir se ek khamoshi bas gyi kamre me…thakan ke karan…neend ki ek chadar meri jism par bich gyi… aur me kahabo ki duniya me kadam rakh diya…jha Aanchal thi aur me tha…
To be continued…
