Update 28
Mere jane ke baad Masi wahin Khade Khade soch rahi th ki kya ye Amit wahi hai jo har waqt khush rehta tha, dusro ko hasane wala aur aaj kaise chup chup hai kya ye vahi hai jo mujhe dost kehta tha aur Meri har baat manta tha. Baat to aaj bhi manta hai par aise lagata hai jaise majboori me manta ho.Baat ko manne aur Dil se karne mein bahut fark hota hai.
Kya usdin Amit ki galti nahi thi?
Kya uski galti nahin hai use sochna chahiye tha ki hi agar Mansi nangi hai to wanha se use chupchap chale jana nahin chahiye tha?
Lekin usne aisa bilkul nahi kiya balki vo to khada hokar mujhe ghure ja raha tha aur mere nange sharir ke har ang ko aise dekh raha tha jaise ki mera sharir koi karoon ka khajana ho aur agar nahi dekhega to usse chin jayega.
Pata nahin kyon mujhe kai bar lagata hai ki shayad uski utni galti na ho jitni main soch rahi hoon. Vaise bhi vo hai to jawan hi na jisne shayad pehli bar nanga jism dekha ho. Aur agar nange badan ko dekhkar bhi na behke to vo kya sadhu hai. Phir bhi usme gazab ka swayam par niyantran hai joki uski mahanta hai.
Masi bhi apani udhehbun me apane kamre me chali gayi.
Aise hi kuch khatte meethe avsaro me din bitane lage. Amit hamesha apane me hi rehne laga aur Masi hamesha use udas dekhkar khud ko kai bar doshi manti aur kai bar sochti ki jo hua hai vo theek hua. Lekin din beetne ke sath sath Masi bhi udas aur preshan rehne lagi.
Udhar Neha ki chhedkhaniya dhire dhire badhne lagi jise ko Amit koi jyada bhav nahi deta tha. Parantu uske karname Amit ko bahut utejit kar dete the aur kai bar utejutna uske control me nahi rehti aur vo bathroom me jakar apane aap ko shant karta tha.
Par ek baat use hamesha preshan karti thi ki vo uttejit hota to tha Neha ki vajah se lekin usko shanti milti thi Masi ko sochkar. Jab ye hota to Amit khush bhi hota ki shayad use Masi se pyar ho gaya lekin kuch bhi kehne ki himmat nahi juta pa raha tha aur sabkuch usne waqt par chhod diya tha.
Aise hi ek din
Masi jab sone gayi to use neend nahin aa rahi thi. Vo bahut pareshan thi.
Apane beete dinon ko yaad kar rahi thi ki kaise uski shaadi hui. Shaadi ke Baad uske Pati ne uska khyal to pura rakha Lekin jis Pyar ka ehsaas Amit ne use karaya vo us waqt kahin nahin tha.
Uske Pati ke liye ye pyar ka matlab tha ki jimmedari ko acche se nibhana, biwi ka khyal rakhna, baccho ko paida karna aur unki jarurto ko pura karna.
Uska Pati uski jarurato ko bakhubi pura Karta tha Lekin jarurato ka matlab khana peena, acche kapde aur raat ko andhere mein sharirik jarurato ko pura karna jisse vo sharirik jarurat samajhta tha.
Apne partner ki kya jarurat hai kya nahin uske bare mein bilkul nahi sochta tha, uske hisab se sharirik jarurat ka matlab sirf aur sirf tha sambhog. Use is baat se koi matlab nahi tha ki uska partner santusht hua hai ya nahin. is baat se use Koi Fark nahi padta tha uske liye sirf aur sirf jaruri tha ka ki wo khud santusht hua Hai ya nahin.
Usne Jo bhi Kiya band kamre mein aur andhere mein, kabhi bhi ujale mein kuch nahi kiya.
Kabhi aisa nahi hua ki usne mujhe ujale mein gale lagaya ho ya mujhe kiss ki ho kabhi meri chuchiya masli ho ya kabhi mere kulho ko masla ho, kabhi bhi nahin.
Ek aurat hamesha Apne Pati se kaamna karti hai ki uska pati use chhede, sehlaye, kiss kare lekin Mera Pati Aisa nahin hai.
Yah bhi sach hai ki mere Pati ne kabhi mujhse unchi awaz mai baat nahin ki mujhe se kabhi gussa nahi hua. Kabhi mujh par hath nahi uthaya, hamesha Pyar se baat ki hai.
Hamesha Meri izzat ki hai, Dil ke bahut acche hain. Kabhi Meri kisi baat ka Bura nahi Mana
Meri baat hamesha Mante rahe hain, kabhi kisi baat ke liye mujhe Mana nahi kiya, kabhi kisi baat ke liye koi pabandi nahi lagayi. Hamesha ek accha dost bana Raha, hamesha sukh dukh mein saath diya hai, chahe kitni bhi badi pareshani ho mil jul kar nibhayi hai.
Sab ke bawjud meri sharirik jarurato khyaal rakhna bhi unka dharam tha.10 saal pahle jab voh yanha se gaye the tu Wada kiya tha ki roj baat karenge aur Mera saath denge
Isme Koi doo ray nahin hai ki unhone mujhe paise ki Kami nahin aane di lekin dheere dheere baat karne ki frequency kum hoti guyi aur ab to kai bar 3-3 mahine tak baat hi nahin hoti hai, baki kisi chij ka kya kanhe.
Har kisi ko ek aise dost ki jarurat hoti hai jiske saath aap apni antrang baate share kar sakte hai. Antrang baten share kar sakna aur dukh sukh baant sake aur sath me gopniyata banaye rakhen. Parantu Meri Zindagi mein aisa kuch bhi nahin tha aur sabse badi baat mere Sanskar mujhe Ghar se Bahar kisi ke saath bhi sambandh banane ki ijazat nahi dete hain. Jise aap Mera Dard bhi keh sakte hain main apni man Ki iccha ko kaafi salon se daba ke rakhi hui thi maine kabhi nahi chaha ki meri ichha mere Pati ke upar bojh ki tarah ho kyunki vo ek saccha dost the. Isliye dosti mein thoda sa sacrifice to zaroori hai
Parantu jab se Amit aaya Hai usne mere Dil ki gehraiyon ko chua hai, use dekh kar mere sharir mein Khushi ki Lehar Daud jati hai. Vo bhi ek saccha dost hai, thik hai uski Dosti Abhi kuch dinon ki hi hai lekin yeh Dosti bahut pakki hai, aisa mere vishwas hai. Aisa isliye hai kyonki usne mere dutkarne ke bawjud vo yahi pada hua hai aur bina baat ke beijjiti seh ja raha hai.
Ye Uska mere liye pyar hi to hai tabhi bo yeh sab kar raha hai.
Uska Meri taraf Dosti ka haath badhana, mujhse Pyar karna sab darshata hai ki vo acha Insaan hai lekin in sab baaton ne Meri soi hui icchaon ko fir se jagrit kar diya.
Mujhe lagne Laga main bhi ek insan hoon jo abhi Jinda hai. Usse pahle to pichhale 10 salon me machine bani hui thi.
Zindagi ka ehsaas hona shuru hi hua tha ki mai jindagi ke Nashe mein main yaha bhi bhul gayi maine kis ka dil dukha diya.
Mere dost ne to meri us fatkar ko dil se lagakar naraz ho kar baith gaya hai
Use itna bada shock Laga hai ki vo mujhe aankh milakar dekhta bhi nahin hai
Woh sirf Apne kam se kam raktha hai aur kisi kaam Ko Mana bhi nahi karta. Mujhe samajh nahi aa raha ki main use doshi manu ya nahin. Kahin main hi to doshi nahi.
Chahe jo bhi ho mujhe uski dosti aur pyar chahiye kyonki ab main uske begair nahi rah sakti.
