Sasural me pahla kadam hi mere liye ajeeb tha … ” Yun to mujhe jin halaaton me byah kar meri sasuraal me feinka gaya tha ” meri aankhon me kisi se naa koi hasrat thi aur naa hi koi khushnuma sapna par phir bhi mai apna sab kuchh chhod kar uss ghar me rahne gayi thi yakeen maaniye mujhe wahan koi bhi aisa nahi mila jisko mai apna kah sakti ya kisi me apna koi hitaishi dekh sakti … jo bhi rishe mile wo nakli aur jo insaan mile wo lalach ke putle mile …
Ek taraf thi meri saasu maa jo apki param sakhi bhi thi aur jinke mamatwa par aap 30 saalon se ithlaa rahi hain unko to bas itna wasta tha mujhse ki meri maa ne kya kya gahne diye hain mujhe aur fikar iss baat ki rahti thi ki kahi mai muhh dikhai ki rakam , gahno aur unke bete ko hadap naa kar jau … apne bete ko pal pal ahsas karati rahi ki ” maa ka stan koi nahi le sakta hai ek paraye ghar se aayi ladki to bilkul nahi… ”
doosri taraf pita tulya mere sasur ji to dahej ka samaan sara aya ki nahi isi list me uljhe rahe aur ye bhi bhool gaye ki sirf shadi nahi aur bhi functions hote hain … sare rishtedaar chori se mujhse baat karne ke bahane mere saas aur sasur ke lalach ki kahaniyan sunate rahte … ek ne to yahan tak poonchh kiya ki meri bahut jyada bahne hain kya jo mujhe aanan faanan me iss ghar me byah diya gaya …
Ek nanad mili Sirf usi ne bhabhi se jyada mujhe dost samjha … mere sath khadi rahi warna to shayad mai aur bhi jyada ghut jati wahan … par kitne din wo bechari mera sath deti use bhi to uski hisse ki jalalat bhogni thi wo bhi meri tarah gahno se laad kar banarsi saadi me pack kar kisi ko shadi ka gift de di gayi … meri hi tarah thi uff bhi nahi ki usne bas roti rahi mane bolne ki koshish ki to Nikhil ke tamache ne hamesha ke liye mere swabhiman ka gala ghont diya … mere liye Nikhil ka ye vyohar sabse jyada takleef deh tha …
Nikhil ko to khair maine shadi ke pahle hi jaan liya tha ki wo ” mamma’s boy ” hai … ek koshish bhi ki thi masi ko batane ki … par masi ne bhi mujhe apki tarah daulat aur ijjat ka wasta dena shuru kar diya tha khair Nikhil wahi karta tha jo uski maa kahti thi … yahan tak ki jis din uski maa mujh par naraaj hoti thi wo room me nahi ata tha aur hall me so jata tha kyu ki wo apni maa ko ” stress ” nahi dena chahta tha bhale kisi aur ki kuchh bhi dasha hoti rahe …
Inn sab pareshaniyon ke alaawa shuruaat Ke pahle hafte me to sab theek thaak tha par jaise hi Nikhil ne office jana shuru kiya sab kuchh bada hi ajeeb ho gaya … Mujhe machine samjh liya gaya … meri saas ka eksutriya karkram rahta ki kaise wo mera sara upyog kar le … mere jate thi uss ghar ki eklauti kaamwali ko bhi hata diya gaya … Jimmedariyon ke naam par mera ek ek boond khoon choos liya unhone … Agar bimaar hoti to kaun bole dawa ke liye balki do roti ke sath saikdon tane Free mil jate the …
Mai bina bole sab Sahti rahi … ek din Nikhil ne faisla suna diya ki naukri chhod videsh jaa raha hai kyu ki apne dost ke sath partnership me koi kaam chal nikla tha … mai to hairaan rah gayi … maine use samjhaya bhi lekin jaise hota tha waise hi hua … Nikhil ko meri nahi sunni thi usne nahi suni haan mujhe mere ubhare huye pet ke sath dhakka dekar apni mardangi ka jhanda jarur gaad diya tha … Uss dard ne rishton ki kadi ko behad kamjor kar diya mere liye … meri kokh ka ankur hi mera apna , eklauta saga rishta bata tha …
Badi mushkil se Sahil ko duniya me laya gaya … mere liye ye Life ki sabse badi khushi thi … uss wakt aap bhi aayi thi … jalse me shamil huyi par apke abhimaan ne Meera ki jeeti jagti laas ko ek baar phir najar andaaj kar diya yaa yun kahein ki ek maa apni aulaad ko hi nahi samjh paayi maine bhi kuchh nahi kaha kyu ki mujhe pata tha mere kahne par aapse dilaase aur naseehton ke alaawa kuchh bhi nahi milega …
mere bete Sahil ne mere sukhe feeke hontho par hasi di thi uss wakt bhi aur aaj bhi sirf mera beta mere eklaute Pyaar ke rishton me shamil hai … meri takleef aaj bhi yathawat hai … meri jindgi kisi neeras kathputli ke jaisi hai jiski koi kadar nahi karta …
Maa meri ghutan ki kahani bahut lambi hai par mai uss darawne sapne ko isse jyada nahi yaad karna chahti hoon … bas itna jaan lijiye ki 30 saalon se yaatnaayein sahti mai ek jinda lash ke siwa kuchh nahi hoon … abb kisi baat ka koi asar nahi hota hai … aansu to kabke sookh chuke hain…
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