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Ab aagee
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Raat gahra chuki ti aur mai bahar leta …ta..
Lewt kar bas bas apne gujre atit me khoya ta inn chand dinno me kya kya ho gaya kitni baato se anjan ta mai kitna dukh huwa hoga dadi ko bua ko bade papa ko..
Aur meri maa unki toh baat hi alag hai baare ghar k laar pyar me pali badhi aur yaha aa kar kitni sahjta se sab kuch sab kasto saha par ham p apni mamta lutati rahi…
Aur mai kab waqt ne mujhe vasna k daldal me gashit liya pata b na chala mujhe…
Apni hi maa ka diwana aur bahan ka aashik ban gaya..aur pyar karne k liye aur koi nai milla milli b toh barI bahan chachi ne b unhe hatane ko kaha kaise kar payunga ye ..
Sawal bhut se the par jawab koi nai mai yu hi karwat badal raha ta ki narm hath k ahsas sar p huwa…
“Kya baat hai soya nai ab tak…”buaa pyar se boli…
“Nind hi nai aa rai bua…”..kuch paresan lag raha hai bta kya baat hai..”
Wo mere pass hi baith gai..
“Kuch nai bas aaise hi kuch soch raha ta..aap soyi nai ab tak baki to sabhi so gaye…”
“Hmmms ab so gayee…mujhe b nind nai aa rai tii…bta kya baat hai kya soch raha ta..”
“Kuch bate aaisi hoti hai bua ..jisse kissi se kaha nai ja sakta…”
“Bta kar dekh mann halka ho jaiega…”
“Bua rahne do mere bare me na jano to wo hi behtar hai …aaaj jo tum mujhe pyar karti ho wo b nagrat me badal jaiegi..”
Unhone pyar se mathe p chapat lagate huwe kaha “bta b ab itni b nadan nai hu mai…kinnb annkho me fikar hai ristoo ki kadar hai ki ye b na jaan saku ..”
“Ristho ki kadar …..”mere chehre p ek fikki muskan aaa gai…sach nai janti bua aap …mai ek vasna ka jeeta jagta putla hu jisse risto ki koi kadar nai kaun hai uske samne isse usse koi fark nai parta…”
“Mera dimahg kahta hai ki jo mai kar raha hu dekh raha hu wo galat hai ..par mann kahta hai jo ho raha hai jo chal raha hai usse yu hi chalne de…”
“Mai maann ko kabu me nai kar pata..”
“Par aaj ye sab kyu soch raha hai…”..bua meri orr yu hi dekhti raii..
“Kya fark hai mujhme aur chote baba me mai b toh wai kar raha hu na jo wo kar rahe the firr unka jo kuch b huwa aapke sath jjo kuch apke sath kiya unhone mujhe kyu bura lag raha hai…
Jab wo galat hai toh mai b toh galat hu na..toh firr kyu mai unke pichee par gaya unki jaan le lene ka man kar raha hai mera…kyu…”
Bua kuch pal shant rahi…jaise jawab dundh rahi ho..
Kisse kahe kasurwar sanju ye toh mai b thik tarah se nai janti..par ha itna jarur kahungi jinn rishto me ek dusree ki kadr aur apnapan ho kabhi galat nai hota ..aur firr tu jinki baat kar raha hai uske liye aurat bas ek khilauna hai aur kuch nai jaha tak mai janti hu tujhe itna toh jarur wiswas hai tu kam se kam aurato ko khilaona toh nai samjhta…pata hai aaj mai kyu aape se bahar ho gai..
Wo aaj b mere sath wo sab kar leta toh mujhe kuch fark nai parta kyuki ye jhakm mere ruh par aaj ki nai hai..par aaj usne jinki baat ki mere liye wo sab kuch hai….usne tumhe marne ki baat ki ..meri maa bhabhi aur aur full si bhatiji ko randi banane ki baat ki ..issi wajah se mera aapa kho gaya…
“Bas bua aur mujhse nai suna jaiega…”
“Janti hu ..tu aahat hota hai in sab se firr tu ne ye kaise soch liya ki tu ussi k jaisa hai…”
Mai bua k good me sar rakh diya bari shanti milli muhhe jaise dill se ek bojh halka huwa ho…
Bua k jism ki khusbu mere sanso me samanee lagii..mai yu hi bua k pett me apna sar ghusaye na jane kab so gaya ..aur vo mere sar me ungliya fert rai na jane kab tak…
To be CONTINUED…
