UPDATE 9
MAI-DIDI ek din apko sach ka pta chlega pr tab tak
bahut der ho chuki hogi.tb ap bohot pachtaogi
itna keh k muje wha se nikal jana chahiye tha(jesa
apne bda padha hoga)
pr yha bat ulti pad gyi.or didi mujhe dhakka dekr gate
ko mere muh pe bnd krke room se nikl gyi.or sirf ek
bat kehkr gyi.jisne mujhe adhmra kr diya
DIDI-(jate hue)agr tum mai jra bhi sharm baki ho to fir
kabhi mujhe apni sakl mat dikhana.mar chuke ho tum
mere liye smjhe
Mai kisi ujde hue chaman ki tra bikhra hua akela apne
room mai khda raha
Ab mujhe ROHIT par bda gussa arha tha par us gusse
se kahi jada mai shock mai tha didi ki bato se.Mene
soch liya jab didi ko mujh pe ykin hi nahi to mera
ROHIT ko sabk sikhane ka kya fayda.Yhi bat soch kr
mene sara mamla samay ke uper chhod diya.mujhe
viswas tha didi ko jaldi hi apni glti ka ehsas hoga.
is trah 5-6 din beet gye.Akele mai hmesha didi se bat
krne ki firak me rehta or wo muje andekh kr nikl
jati.gharwalo aur class main mai unse njre churata
tha.mujhe dar tha kahi wo sbke samne meri ijjat na
utar de.
8 ve din mai school se ghar aya or khana kha kr nikal
gya bahar.Ye mera daily ka routin tha.mai ghar pr didi
se bchta firta tha.Us din me sham ko ghar laut rha tha
to mene papa ko gadi se kahi jate dekh.Jb tk mai gate
k pas pahucha to wo nikl chuke the or mummy waha
khdi thi
MAI-MAA papa is time kahan gye hai aaj
MAA-beta wo tumhari didi ko hostel chhodne gye
hai.pata nhi aj kya hua achank hi jid krne lgi k muje
hostel mai padhna hai.or tumhare papa to pehle hi tyar
the
MAA-ab tum bhi uski tra study mai tej hote to tume bhi
bhejte par tume to pta ni padhayi kis chidiya ka nam
hai
MAA ki bate sunkr mujhe ek jhtka lga.jiske kehne par
didi ne hostel jana cancel kiya tha or jise wo jaan se
jada pyar krti thi.Aj us se itni nafrat ki ek to hostel
chali gyi.wo bhi bina muje mile bina mera wait
kiye.ITNI NAFRAT AKHIR KYO?
“didi pls mujhe maf kr do.ye mene nahi kiya.ap meri
bat ka ykin kyo nhi krti.pls didi mt jao muje chhod kar
pls ruk jao didi pls…..”mai Uth kr beth gya.fir se wahi
khaab
aaj didi ko gye 1yr se jada time ho gya tha.wo collge
mai agyi thi aur mai bhi.par is 1 saal ke sare waqt main
din mai unki yade, unka masum or bhola chehra mujhe
yad ata rehta tha.or raat mai unke khwab mujhe sone
nahi dete the.Is 1 sal mai mera kisi bhi chij mai mn
nahi lgta tha.khane pine pr dhyan nhi deta tha body
puri trah se gir gyi thi.kmjori agyi thi.bs ek MERE behn
ki yaaden hi thi jo mere rom rom par apna dera dale
hue thi.mai din pe din pagal hua ja raha tha.
Fir ek din mene dobara se beeti hui sari ghatnao par
vichar kiya mEnE socha
ki didi ne mujhe is tra SE thukraya hai jbki meri koi glti
bHI nhi thi.or mujhe apni safai dene tk ka moka bhi nhi
diya DIDI ne.
TO ye kuch baten soch kr mai is nateeze par pahuncha
ki
MUJHE bhi DIDI SE nafrt hi krni chahiye.jaise wo krti
hain mujhse.
likin mai to unke juda hone k gam mai mra ja raha tha.
To kya mai unse nafrat kr BHI paunga.MERE is swal ka
sirf ek hi jwab tha aur wo tha”KBHI NAHI”.
DIDI hmara bhai behn wala rista to kbkakhatm kr chuki
thi or mene bhi is riste ko lagbhag khtm man liya tha.
to fir hr time mujhe DIDI ki yad kyu stati rehti hai,unka
bhola bhala chehra hi kyu njro ke samne chhaya rehta
hai.
KYA ye meri DIDI k liye meri nafrt hai.Kya nfrat mai
bhla koi itna yad ata hai,hr time dimag pe kbza kiye
rehta hai nhi.Bilul nahi,nafrt mai to wo admi bura lgne
lgta hai.
NAFRT nhi to kya ye mera meri DIDI K liye PYAR
hai.Par kya koi apni behn k pyar mai itna bhi tadfta hai.
To kya mera pyar MERI DIDI k liye itna age badh gya
hai ki usne behn bhai wale pyar ko koson piche chhod
diya hai.
YE dheron swala us time mere dimag mai the
AUR sbka ek hi jwab”han,han or sirf han hi tha”
dimag k sath chlne wale is yudh k bad akhir me MUJHE
bhi ye manna pada ki mujhe APNI BEHAN se hi pyar ho
gya hai.
Aur manta bhi q na ye bat thi bhi to sach
AJ mai khud ko incest bnte dekh rha tha,pr muje is bat
ka jra bhi gam nhi tha.GAM isliye nhi tha q ki mere
pyar mai hawas ka kahi koi nam nisan nhi tha.
SHAYD ye pyar bhai behan k pyar se bhi kahi jada
pwitra tha
