Update 3
Jab mujhe hosh aaya to main hospital me ek bistar me pada hua tha , muhe me oxygen laga hua tha , hatho me glucose ki bottle ,meri sabse chhoti aur sabse pyari bahan ritu abhi apna sar mere pairo ke pas rakhe so rahi thi ..
Mere sharir me halchal hui .. aur ritu jag gayi
“aap uth gaye .. “ uske ankho se jaise shailab hi bah nikala tha , usne mujhe kaskar jakad liya ..
“aah ..” mere hotho se dard se bhari hui aawaj nikal aayi , ritu ne mere jankho ko daba diya tha
“ohh sorry sorry .. bhaiya uth gaye , bhaiya ko hosh aa gaya “ wo chillate hue kamre se bahar bhaag gayi thi …….
Thodi hi der me mere pariwar ke aur bhi kai log aate gaye , unse mujhe pata chala ki main pure ek mahine se behosh pada hu , in ek mahine me Sulabh sing aur uske sathiyo ko jail bheja ja chuka hai ,mera pura ganw bas mere hi hosh me aane ki pratiksha kar raha hai , aur har jagah bas matam ka mahol hai..
“is saal kahi koi touhar nahi manayega “ meri maa ne halki awaj me kaha tha ..
Lakhanpur apne mukhiya mere pita ji ki mout se dukhi tha , wahi sadiyo se chale aa rahe choudhari pariwar ke akhari chirag ki is halat ke sudharne ki prarthana kar raha tha , wahi sahanpur ka haal aur bhi bura tha , mukhiya tara sing chal base the , uske bad jise mukhiya ki gaddi samhalni thi wo jail me tha , mard ke naam par us pariwar me bas Ridhima ka chhota bhai kamal hi tha lekin wo abhi is layak nahi tha ki mukhiya banaya ja sake isliye wanha ki aur sath hi sath lakhanpur ki sari bhagdouad abhi gajraaj ke hatho me hi aa gayi thi , jab tak koi dusara gaddidar nahi mil jata tab ke liye gajraaj hi teeno ganwo ka mukhiya tha ……
Din bitate gaye aur meri halat me lagataar sudhar hota gaya , is bich hi mujhe kuchh ajib sa mahsoos hone laga tha , kuchh ajib sa jo mere sath kabhi nahi hota tha , mere ling me kuchh jyda hi akdan si hoti thi , aise ager ye ek noujwan insan bole to koi ajib bat nahi hai lekin fir bhi ye akdan bina kisi karan ke ya chhote mote karno se hi hone lagi thi , aur fir main rat rat bhar tadafta rahta ..
Mujhe lagne laga tha ki shayd ye koi dawai ka reaction hoga , kyoki kahi na kahi mujhe koi abnormality jaisi feeling ho rahi thi , wahi sharir ko main roj hi aur bhi takatwar pata tha, main bahut hi jaldi recover kar raha tha jisse mere Dr. bhi thode hairan pareshan the , lekin koi bhi mujhse kuchh nahi kahta ..
Akhir tang akar maine apne ling me aane wali akad ke bare me Dr. ko bata hi diya , unhone kuchh checkups kiya aur kaha ki tum normal ho ghabrane ki koi jarurat nahi hai , sharir me bahut blood loss hone ke karn tum behosh the aur hosh me aane ke bad se jaldi recovery kar rahe ho to samjho ye tumhare ander aane wali takat ka hi parinaam hai ..unhone mujhe kuchh dawai diya jisse mera ling thoda shant ho gaya …
Usi din Dr. ne mere ghar walo se bat ki aur mujhe kuch dawai de kar wanha se bida kar diya ..
Karib 2 mahine ke bad main apne ghar me aaya tha ..
Mera swagat pure ganw ne kiya , ab main unke liye wo chhota ajay nahi rah gaya tha balki unka mukhiya , sahanpur ki satta ka gaddidar ajay choudahri tha ..
Mera samman bhi usi tarike se kiya gaya , meri maa ne sabhi ke samne ghosana bhi kar di ki kuchh hi dino ke bad gadadidari ki puri prakriya ko purn kiya jayega aur mujhe mukhiya ke roop me mere pita ke sthan par bitha diya jayega …
Har taraf khushi ka mahol tha , aisa laga jaise pura ganw hi touhaar mana raha ho , subah kab rat me badal gayi mujhe pata hi nahi chala ,
Main apne kamre ki or badh raha tha jo ki uper ke manjil me bana tha , lekin apne maa ke kamre ki khidakhi se gujarte hue main ruk gaya ,mujhe maa ke rone ki awaj sunai di , sath hi meri dono chachiya rewati aur rani bhi thi aur meri badi bahan anaya bhi ..
“did aap fikar mat karo main aur rani use samhal lenge “
Rewati chachi ne apne ansu ponchhate hue kaha
“nahi nahi rewati ,akhir kaise wo tumhara bhi to beta hai “ meri maa ka gala bhara hua tha
“didi shikari baba ne to hame pahle hi kah diya tha ki ise samhalna muskil hoga , lekin ager hamne ise samhal liya to fir hamare ajay ki takat aur bhi jyda badhate jaayegi , ye ek abhishrap bhi hai aur vardaan bhi .. ajay se hi hamare kul ka chiraag roshan hai ham use nahi kho sakte , iske liye hame jo bhi karna padega ham karenge … aur aaj amawashya hai jaisa ki baba ne bataya tha aaj se hi uske sharir me hawas ki aag sabse jyda utpann hogi aur ager use shant nahi kiya gaya to wo sab jala dega , pata nahi jo bhi uske samne aayega wo uske sath .. nahi nahi didi mujhe jaana hi hoga “
Rewati chachi ke bato me ek irade ki jhalak thi
“lekin rewati tum logo ko main is jhamele me kaise fansa sakti hu , shikari baba se ajay ki jaan ki bheekh mangate waqt maine unhe swikriti di thi, wachan diya tha ki jo bhi hoga main use samhalungi , tab maine tum logo se iske bare me puchcha tak nahi tha ,main to apne putra ke moh me thi aur unhe haa kah diya lekin ab jab pariksha ki ghadi aayi to main kaise pichhe hat sakti hu , use to mujhe hi ….” Itana kahkar maa joro se rone lagi
Meri dono chachiyo ne unke kandhe par apna hath rakh diya
“Dr. ki dawai ka asar se to wo thik rah sakta hai maa “ anaya didi bol uthi
“ha anaya lekin Dr. ne saf saf kah diya tha ki dawaiyo ka asar kuchh hi samay tak rahega tab tak wo shant rahega ,aur jyda dawai lene se uska sharir kamjor hota jayega , dawaiya ham use jyda nahi khila sakte , aur bina dawai ke to uska ling kabu me nahi rahega aur uske bad use apna virya nikalna hi padega warna uska ling kathor hote jayega, tanaw ajay ke bardast ke bahar ho jayega aur ek samay ke bad nashe fat jayengi jisse uski mout bhi ho sakti hai … aur aaj .. aaj to amawashya hai jab se uske ander ek shaitan ka janm hoga jo apne hawas ki aag ke samne kuch nahi dekhega , aaj uske ling ka tanaw koi bhi dawai kabu me nahi rakh payegi , ager use kuchh nahi mila to ya to wo khud hi kisi ke uper tut padega ya fir uska ling fatne se wo khud hi mar jayega , nahi nahi anaya ham apne bachche ko aisi halat me nahi dekh sakte “
Rani chachi kahte kahte hi ro padi thi , meri didi ke ankho me bhi ansu ki bunde thi
“chachi lekin iske liye hame apne rishto ki diwar ko girana hoga , aur isse achcha hai ki wo khud hi apne ko shant kar le “
Anaya didi thodi asahj hote hue boli
“hame Dr. se is bare me bhi bat ki thi lekin unka kahna hai ki isse uski uttejana aur bhi badh jaayegi aur hatho ke ragdaw se paida hone wali garmi ki wajah se uski nasho ke fatne ki sambhawana jyda ho jaayegi , use stri ki yoni hi shant kar sakti hai … sikari baba ne bhi to yahi kaha tha ki stri ka sansarg hi use aaram dega ya to wo dawai jise baba khud hi dhundh rahe hai “
Rani chachi ne fir se subakte hue kaha
“ager stri ka sansarg hi mere bhai ko is takleef se aaram de sakta hai to kyo na ham bajaru ladkiyo ka prabandh kare “
Anaya didi bol uthi
“nahi , nahi anaya ye tum kya kah rahi ho , choudhari khandaan me aaj tak kisi ne bajaru aourato ki or dekha tak nahi hai “
Meri maa jo ki abhi tak ro rahi thi unke ankho me gussa aa gaya tha
“lekin maa abhi tak kisi ko aisi paristhiti ka samna bhi to nahi karna pada tha …”
Anaya didi ne apni bat par jor diya, wanha ek moun tha sabhi ne ek dusare ke chahre ki or dekha
“did ager ye bat bahar aa gayi to hamare pariwar ki bahut beijjati ho jaayegi “
Rewati chachi bol uthi
“ha rewati tu sahi kah rahi hai , use hame hi samhalna hoga , tum log aaram karo main apne bete ko samhal lungi “
Meri maa ke ankho me ek ajib sa dard umad aaya tha
“nahi didi hamare rahte aap aisa kuch nahi karenge , na hi hamari betiyo ko ham aisa kuchh karne denge .. ham dono uski maa ke jaisi hai lekin aap .. aap uski maa ho , aapke sath ager ajay ne kuchh galat kiya to kya wo jivan me kabhi khud ko maaf kar payega , wo to khud hi is glani me jivan bhar jalta rahega “ rewati chachi maa ki bato se dar gayi thi ..
Maa ne ek bar rewati chachi ko bade hi pyar se dekha aur uske galo par apne hath fer diye ..
“thik hai rewati mera beta ab tum dono ke hawale hai , main tum dono ki ye kurbani kabhi nahi bhulungi “ ye kahte hue maa rewati chachi se lipat gayi thi …… sabhi ek dusare se lipte hue ro rahe the ..
Mere dimag me ab sab kuchh clear tha , maine bachpan se jo kahaniya shikari ki bimari ke bere me sun rakhi thi wo sach thi aur ab main khud us bimari se grasit tha ..
Lekin sawal ye tha ki kya meri chachiya mujhe shant kar payegi ..
Meri najar khidakhi se hi rewati chachi ke uper gayi , saree me lipata hua unka badan jo ki kasaw ke sath sath bhara hua tha ..
Gore rang ke sharir me unhone pile rang ki saree pahan rakhi thi aur unke bade bade sine se niche unke khule sthan se jhankate hue unke pet ke hisse ko dekhkar mere ling me ek sirsuri si doud gayi ..
Maine dawai kuchh der pahle hi khai thi lekin shayad dawai ne apna asar dikahna khatm kar diya tha ling me ajib si akad hone lagi thi, meri sanse tej ho rahi thi main bhagta hua apne kamre me chala gaya , chachi ka jism aur unki bate abhi bhi mere man me naach rahi thi , mai vasana se bhar chuka tha rishto ki mariyada ab mere liye kisi matlab ki nahi rah gayi thi , maine apne sare kapde nikaal diye aur sidha bathroom me shower chala kar niche ja khada hua ..
Thande pani ki bundo ne mujhe thoda aaram diya , main bahut der tak yu hi khada hua apne sharir ki aag ko shant karne ki koshis kar raha tha , mera man ek udhedbun me tha tabhi mere darwaje par kisi ki dastak hui ……….
